And when I think of you,
part of me hurts.
It's like this unquenchable ache in my core,
and I have no idea how to get rid of it.
It feels like I'm trying to white you out of my life
but the white out smears and melts away with every worthless attempt.
[I can't erase five years...]
I see places that remind me of you,
places that we've been together,
places that remind me of us and everything.
Bring back the once joyous memories
that now cut like a knife.
I miss you so much.
I can't figure out what happened to me.
For so long, I just can't place who I was.
Was I someone different for those months in my life?
Or is that who I really am?
We abandoned each other...
And I'm dwelling...
And maybe it's worthless or it could be worth it.
Who knows if anything could ever be fixed again.
But I'm too much of a coward, and I'm much too scared.
So I'll sit here and hope that you'll be okay...someday.
Even if it that doesn't include me.
I still love you and I always will.
I'm sorry and you'll never know it.